Fairy Tales
I loved reading fairy tales
Great escape for a little girl
A princess, a prince, a castle, the basics
Dances, kisses, and happily ever afters
As beautiful as those tales were
I realise they weren’t good for me
They portrayed all the things I’m not
I disappeared in them and couldn’t see me
My mom and dad used to fight a lot
I didn’t know what happiness looked like
Fairy tales gave the best content
For the imagination of my little heart
The princess wore beautiful ball gowns
Felt the pea under the twenty mattresses
The prince would ride a white horse
And at all costs would protect the princess
The princess was fair of skin and of slender build
Was always the most beautiful girl in the room
In my mind I was her but in reality I was me
A big, hairy girl who had to reinvent herself
I wanted to be a boy ’cause for them things seemed better
They had the best time and to be honest I was jealous
No one was waiting to crucifix them
They were the ones entitled to do it
They could feel the high
From the swag of being manly
I tried it out
It made me feel great
I am a girl and if I wanted that
Would it be wrong if I had that
To feel the high of just being me
And to have someone be appreciative of me
I was far away from the reality
It wasn’t a place I’d rather be at
All the spots had been taken by
The ones who fit into the boxes
Maybe it was all in my head
Or maybe I was sick
But aren’t mutations also
Nature’s creations?
I dreamed of bearing swords & riding horses
Saving the princess of my dreams…
But right in that moment I’d wish I was the princess
Sadly, I was strong and not a damsel in distress
Don’t get me wrong, I like being a girl
But I’d also like to be appreciated for my work
I would like to have some weight to my words
And to not be a doormat if not a pretty princess
I met a girl whose smile I liked
She gave me a chance to be her knight
But it was sad that underneath all that
I was the one who wanted to be saved
Then I met a boy, when I needed someone the most
I was carrying too much, a damsel in distress
Not anyone’s princess, but I wanted to be
So all ships launched to build a new reality
He was there for a moment
But things weren’t great
That led me to my next boyfriend
A lie on top of another lie
I needed both to make one work
I was lonely, I was hurting
I was losing my wits, needed a shoulder to lean on
But I couldn’t be consoled
’Cause to have them I was being no one
But it all was in my romantic world
In reality we were worlds apart
Even if not, there were things keeping me,
From being happy with him or anyone
But if the narrative was different
Would I have lived a life more true
Compelled to be a damsel in distress,
If I wanted to be not alone
The prince is fighting his own demons
The damsel has the makings of a queen
She saves herself, he’s a drunk in distress
Life is all what we make out of it
So, let’s rewrite the fairytales
Let’s not mislead the little ones
Because happiness and sadness
Are both in the ever after
